catching up

03/29/2009 at 2:43 am 4 comments

i feel like there’s a lot going on in my life these days, so i’m not really sure where to start. i’ve learned so much in my clinical rotations this semester. we’ve been going to a psychiatric/mental illness hospital about once a week and a medical hospital about every other week or so. the psychiatric one has not been as bad or scary as i anticipated, but i’ve gotten to see and experience so many new things.

mental illness is something that is very hard to wrap my mind around. unlike many medical diagnoses, many people with mental illness will never be cured. it’s something they deal with for the rest of their lives and it’s not something they’ve chosen. this week for the first time i talked to someone with severe anxiety. he was eating by himself, so i went to sit with him. he was really nice, and started to tell me how he got really anxious around people and had a hard time keeping his food down. his body language clearly showed how anxious he was, and he got this look on his face like he wanted to cry. it was unlike anything i’ve ever seen, happened in a short amount of time, and i can’t imagine what it’s like having to live like that. i left him alone, so i didn’t get to find out much about him. i just thought about how everything we do and say and the way we act can affect somebody. we never know the whole story and what somebody is going through. there is such a bigger picture than what we sometimes see, and what we think might not be a big deal might actually make a big difference in their lives…positively or negatively.

even though mental illness is hard to understand, we do get to see some of them get better and stabilized and get to go home. even though they’re not cured, they are managing their illness and living with it. there is hope, and that’s awesome to see. in everything that’s hard to understand, it’s a part of life that we just have to trust the Lord for. knowing that He is in control of all situations and able to do things that people or medications could never do.

as a future nurse/student nurse, there are certain things i want to accomplish. i want to build relationships, and i want my patients to know that i am there for them. yesterday, i was asked to help feed one of the patients that couldn’t feed herself. she was an elderly woman and alert and knew what was going on, but she was in a lot of pain and had to be really still to decrease the pain, so i went in and fed her. we had a great conversation, and she told me about her childhood, her marriage, children, etc. i really liked her, and as our time together came to an end, i could tell that she was very grateful. she told me that that had been the best part of her day. she wasn’t assigned to me, but i went to say bye to her before i left for the day. she grabbed my hand and just started telling me how grateful she was. i stayed for about 15-20 minutes, and as she talked, i started crying. i’m not going to go into detail, but i think it was the first time i really was able to see how the smallest things you do can make a big difference to somebody who is having a hard day. all i did was feed her and sit & talk with her. her story and her face will stay with me for a long time.  

in other news, i interviewed for a job at a children’s hospital this summer. i feel like it went really well, but i won’t know for a few days.  march madness has prevented me from being proactive in my schoolwork also, however, i’m #1 in my bracket pool, so i’m enjoying that for as long as it lasts. i’ve made some new friends the past few weeks, and i’m excited about getting to know and hang out with them more. after 2 more assignments in my research class, i’ll be done! then i’ll have 2 other classes i’ll be in the rest of this summer.

i have so much to be grateful for, and i’m just enjoying and trying to take advantage of the opportunities i’ve been given. well, that’s what’s been goin on w/ me for the past few weeks. busy, but good.


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finally updating. reason to celebrate

4 Comments Add your own

  • 1. alla1  |  04/01/2009 at 8:05 am

    Wow Abby! You just never cease to amaze me! You truly are an inspiration. I know you will make an amazing nurse. It is nice to go to a hospital and have that one person no matter what field they are in show some compassion.
    As for the March Madness Yay you and your picks!! lol

  • 2. Becky  |  04/03/2009 at 9:59 am

    Abby, we always knew that you were a compassionate and loving person. We love ya.

  • 3. Sarah Mac  |  04/09/2009 at 10:30 am

    i just teared up. love you abbers!

  • 4. instride  |  05/09/2009 at 2:53 am

    we miss you, Abby. i’m praying for you and your time with these precious people who are made in the image of God.

    love, a, j, & e


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